Still Going Along..

Things are good, in most aspects. Still working on making our marriage better (who isn"t). Tyler turned 2 months old 2 days ago. I love this little guy so much, stil adjusting some with him getting used to his bec and call. But its good for the most part.

I had put off on Kinder care for a while just because I didnt know about getting the money situated but now I think we are going to put him in kinder care because it'd be the best thing so I still have My time and he get sociallized with other kids and other people. I just love him so MUCH. it'll be hard to leave him most the day. But I know its the best option for us !

I've made a couple friends out here, christa and shelia and anne are all really cool people. Other than that I dont feel like I can really "click" with other people. they just seem two faced or just people who I cant be myself with. Anyone who knows me damn well knows I dont keep my mouth shut. I am the type of person that if you piss me off I'll call you out. I dont think I can really do that with people out here.

Oh Well though I dont care honestly :)> I've got my son and school to do, I'm still enjoying photography I just know that out here its not worth pursing as a Career because SOO many people are Attempting to make a name for themselves I refuse to sell myself for nothing to compete with their prices. I have a better quailty picture so I wont lower my price. So I'll wait tell we are able to PCS (hopefully back to Hill AFB).

Almost a Year DAMN

Yep I'll be married for a year in 23 days. Honestly It doesnt feel like it, sometimes I look bad and really do believe when people say the first year is the hardest. In Our case it was Moving, me being pregnant having Tyler and a bunch of little things added on in there. At the same time I cant imagine me anywhere else. I mean I can but I wouldnt be truly happy. The saying" The grass isnt always greener on the other side is right". Yes sometimes I wanna pack up and leave but no one's relationship is perfect and if it is well BITE ME. :)

Rick got news on an upcoming deployment and I'm not too thrilled with it. Were disscussing me going back to Utah for the time that he's deployed. However my parents dont really have room, and as mush as I LOVE my grandma I cant live with her again I'll go CRAZY.

I have a cute little on sleeping next to me. He's getting so damn big ! He is almost 11lbs We go in on the 17th for his 2 month checkup and he gets his shots :(. That's gonna be a hard day for me I think more than him. mostly he's a very very MELLOW child and I love it. For the past couple days though he's been more fussy than usual I've chocked it up onto a growth spurt he seems to be getting over it now.

I had my 6 week checkup and everything is good to go. Now I just gotta deal with TriCares BS to get my IUD approval faxed to My OB's office AGAIN. Gosh free medical is great but a huge pain in my ass sometimes.

I weigh 158 :( BOOOO Yeah I'm not too thrilled with that number I weigh TOOO much for me I need to lose 20 lbs and that'd be IDEAL I dont have to nessacrly fit back into my 5/6 but my 7/8's is what I'm shooting for.

I've taken all the junk out of the house Rick doesnt know it yet. I'm super serious about losing weight I hate wearing size 12's its absoutely ridiculus that I am wearing that size. I've got to get fitted for my brides maid dress middle of this month I want to drop at least 5lbs before then my dilema is I'm going to be losing weight and I dont know if I should order a size down or not ?? Gah the decision just suck lol.

Well I better go get baby up to eat he's slept 4 hours straight w.o eating and he needs to sleep tonight so time to wake him