Almost a Year DAMN

Yep I'll be married for a year in 23 days. Honestly It doesnt feel like it, sometimes I look bad and really do believe when people say the first year is the hardest. In Our case it was Moving, me being pregnant having Tyler and a bunch of little things added on in there. At the same time I cant imagine me anywhere else. I mean I can but I wouldnt be truly happy. The saying" The grass isnt always greener on the other side is right". Yes sometimes I wanna pack up and leave but no one's relationship is perfect and if it is well BITE ME. :)

Rick got news on an upcoming deployment and I'm not too thrilled with it. Were disscussing me going back to Utah for the time that he's deployed. However my parents dont really have room, and as mush as I LOVE my grandma I cant live with her again I'll go CRAZY.

I have a cute little on sleeping next to me. He's getting so damn big ! He is almost 11lbs We go in on the 17th for his 2 month checkup and he gets his shots :(. That's gonna be a hard day for me I think more than him. mostly he's a very very MELLOW child and I love it. For the past couple days though he's been more fussy than usual I've chocked it up onto a growth spurt he seems to be getting over it now.

I had my 6 week checkup and everything is good to go. Now I just gotta deal with TriCares BS to get my IUD approval faxed to My OB's office AGAIN. Gosh free medical is great but a huge pain in my ass sometimes.

I weigh 158 :( BOOOO Yeah I'm not too thrilled with that number I weigh TOOO much for me I need to lose 20 lbs and that'd be IDEAL I dont have to nessacrly fit back into my 5/6 but my 7/8's is what I'm shooting for.

I've taken all the junk out of the house Rick doesnt know it yet. I'm super serious about losing weight I hate wearing size 12's its absoutely ridiculus that I am wearing that size. I've got to get fitted for my brides maid dress middle of this month I want to drop at least 5lbs before then my dilema is I'm going to be losing weight and I dont know if I should order a size down or not ?? Gah the decision just suck lol.

Well I better go get baby up to eat he's slept 4 hours straight w.o eating and he needs to sleep tonight so time to wake him

One Month Ago..

And One Day I had my son. At 5:09pm I was in labor for 16 hours natural and 1 hour with an epidural. It was the best thing that's ever happended to me. I love him more than anything else. I love my husband but this is like a diffrenet love. Its weird to explain, dont get me wrong there are days were I want to pull my hair out cause he is fussy and wont settle down (today is one of those). When he smiles at me its makes it all worth it !

Rick and I will be married for a Year June 25th. Kindof shockinf there were so many people who said we wouldnt last. It hasnt been no walk in the park that's for sure. I got pregnant like a month after we got married. So of course its gonna a rocky start I'm bitchy normaly add hormones and yeah I turned into Mega Bitch :). Him and I are two diffrenet people but at the same time when even each other out. Its kindof odd but we do work together. There are times where I wanna just pack my shit and leave cause he's being well a man. But we work through it. Takes some time and pateince but we work through it.

I joined this lady's Gym on base for one month. So I can get a jump start on working out and June I will just start going to the regular gym. Doesnt cost anything that way, plus it'd be a better enviorment for me. My Goal is too work out 4 days a week an hour each day. Which is proving to be difficult sometimes I lose my motivation and working out alone sucks sometimes. But I feel guilty asking someone to wake up at 8 am to work out with me. Not everyone is a morning person like me .

Still really haven't meet many people to hand out with out here but its ok. Housework , 2 Dogs, Husband, and school. So that does keep me busy just gets a tad lonely at times. I cannot wait tell Rennie comes, she's basically the only person who understands me. She knows me better than Rick. Might help were basically the same..

3 Weeks Wow :)

Tyler is 3 weeks almost 3 in a half actually. I can't beleive it even looking back on my whole labor experince. It wasnt that bad ok the back labor was fucking brutal though I will admit that. My Doctor was amazing (expect making me wait tell 7cm to get an epidural). I would do it over again in a minute. I know I remember saying that I dont want anymore kids, however I really cant imagine not being a mommy now. Its weird that a baby who cant talk, who sleeps eats and poop's can make my whole day better by smiling at me. Even if people just say its gas I dont care his smile makes my day.

I'm getting back on track with my schooling YAY.. I'm hoping to finish by November and be able to secure a job by Jan 2011. That's the plan well see what actually happens. Part of me really misses Utah and I really do want to go back I miss my friends I mean I have meet some really cool people out here anne and sheila are awesome. I just miss my mountains, and I miss being able to walk up the street and go hiking. I miss that small town country type feel North Ogden had. I miss my crazy white trash family. I want Tyler to have his grandparents in his life. I had my grandmother in mine and It was great, sadly I never knew my grandfather I want Tyler to know his grandpa :). I cant really complain I knew what I was marrying into and that's military life I cant chose where we live. The Airforce does and I'll just have to deal with it .

The weather out here is horrible.. Humid as all FUCK, 90-98 degrees +humditiy I feel like I'm going to die some days. I try to get up early and go walking its a little harder though when Tyler wants to sleep because believe me you dont want to wake up a sleeping baby. Or at least I dont :) I enjoy my sleep, I've got 20 pounds to lose to be at 135 again + a shit load of cruches that need to be done to tighten skin again.. I need to get the member ship on the base gym activated so I can work out in A/C lol.

This is why I didnt bother :)

Dont get me Wrong I LOVE photography I've invested alot of my time into learning photography (The RIGHT way). I invested in my camera and my flash and my backdrops as well as my lighting. I know what needs to be done to create a nice portrait. However it seem as of lately everyone and their damn dog wants to do photography which is great its a great thing to learn. Here is my pet peeve people who make a "company name" take pictures for 4 months and think their some kind of photography godess um NO. Your not sorry but your pictures Suck their over-expossed and you used lighting wrong. This isnt directed at anyone imparticular I'm just getting frustrated with the over abundence of people who want to learn it but just are too lazy to either ask for help or to pick up a photography book and learn. I bet half these people I've seen on facebook & craigslist dont even now was DOF or appeature or F-Stop is Or their focus depth on their camera. Those are so cruical in photography on and POP UP FLASH on your DSLR is not meant to be used it looks BAD in every picture...


This is why I dont bother promoting myself out here much I mean I could make some money however I dont want to have to compete with these "wannabe photographers" It Sounds Like I'm all high and mighty but I'm not I'm just frustrated that this is like a joke to some people. These people are getting wedding shoots and screwing them up and these people are living with crappy photo's of their weddings you cant re-shoot a wedding I mean you just cant !

2 weeks Oh wow

Its been 2 weeks today since I had Tyler. It seems so surreal that I am a mom. I am very very happy. Just very surreal still, he is a great baby at nighttime and even during the day its great. He does have a little congestion in his nose. So he's always snoring but the doctor says that its ok and that it should clear up soon :).

I've started to work out more and more :). I weighed 194lbs when I deliverd I now weigh 160lbs. Still cant fit into my fat pants but little steps so I'm not stressing. I walked 3 miles one day and then the next day I walked 4 miles. So I'm hoping to get this weight off fast. At least by June so I can get into my size 7/8 pants and I'll be quite happy.

Everythng here is basically good, I've started becoming more and more comfortable in NC I still would rather be in UT or ID. I know that that's not an option so its ok and I'm dealing with it. I have started school online for medical transcripton. Its hard to get time to study but I've been trying to make sure I at least study 1 hour a day. Rick's been pretty helpful about taking Tyler while I study.

I took Tyler's One Week Pictures Here are my Favs :)

((Little Vent))




I am a very opionated person, anyone who knows me knows that . I'm SOO sick of hearing what choices I've made in my life will know make my child gay or he will be one of those kids who get tattos. You know what if he does then he does he's my son not yours so keep your damn opion to yourself. I can raise my son however Rick and I please. I dont give a flying crap what you think :)

He's Finally Here

Yep My son made his way into the world April 16th, 2010 at 5:09 pm. Would have been born earlier but I was waiting for daddy to get his butt back to the hospital :)> . Being a mommy is great so far I have the up's and downs but honestly I know in a couple weeks I'll get the hang of this so Its worth it too me to stick out the rough spots here are there with the crying. Mostly he just sleeps so no complaints from me too much :). I am a little bummed about my weight but I know I can excersize and get my behind in gear. I'm only 5 days PP so I dont even want to step near a scale I know I'll be upset.

I started school just before Tyler came for medical transcription I havent done any since he's come home. Bad Bad ME I know I just cant find time or the motiavtion actually to do it is the correct term to it. Hopefully I'll be able to get my behind in gear the next couple of days and get school started up again :)>.

34 Weeks 2 TO GOO

Its been a Bit since I updated this whoopise oh well. I am 34 weeks and So EXCITIED 2 more weeks and I'm considered Full Term and I can have Tyler. Well I can start coaxing him to come anyway haha.

Puppies are still good Getting ready for the baby they are really good with everything in the baby's room. Oreo tried to eat a diaper and learned that mom beating her with the diaper that it wasnt worth it anymore :). Rick and I got more back on our return then we expected and was able to pay 2 credit cards off and Buy a new Sectional for the living room YAY Its soo nice has two Recliners on it. Rick Also bought me my new Flash for my camera he's such a good husband.

Rick will Hopefully sew Staff on Beginning of April were just not sure yet. The pay increase would be awesome right about then if so. Its kindof weird to think in 2 weeks I could be holding my son. WOW I'm only 20 I'll be 21 the 13th of April but I'm still so Young and I'm gonna be a mommy. Kindof hard to think of at times. We've still got 2 things we need to get before were all the way ready.

That's about it honestly I'm still at home with no job. I'm starting School in May so I'm a stay at home wife for the time being.