One Month Ago..

And One Day I had my son. At 5:09pm I was in labor for 16 hours natural and 1 hour with an epidural. It was the best thing that's ever happended to me. I love him more than anything else. I love my husband but this is like a diffrenet love. Its weird to explain, dont get me wrong there are days were I want to pull my hair out cause he is fussy and wont settle down (today is one of those). When he smiles at me its makes it all worth it !

Rick and I will be married for a Year June 25th. Kindof shockinf there were so many people who said we wouldnt last. It hasnt been no walk in the park that's for sure. I got pregnant like a month after we got married. So of course its gonna a rocky start I'm bitchy normaly add hormones and yeah I turned into Mega Bitch :). Him and I are two diffrenet people but at the same time when even each other out. Its kindof odd but we do work together. There are times where I wanna just pack my shit and leave cause he's being well a man. But we work through it. Takes some time and pateince but we work through it.

I joined this lady's Gym on base for one month. So I can get a jump start on working out and June I will just start going to the regular gym. Doesnt cost anything that way, plus it'd be a better enviorment for me. My Goal is too work out 4 days a week an hour each day. Which is proving to be difficult sometimes I lose my motivation and working out alone sucks sometimes. But I feel guilty asking someone to wake up at 8 am to work out with me. Not everyone is a morning person like me .

Still really haven't meet many people to hand out with out here but its ok. Housework , 2 Dogs, Husband, and school. So that does keep me busy just gets a tad lonely at times. I cannot wait tell Rennie comes, she's basically the only person who understands me. She knows me better than Rick. Might help were basically the same..

3 Weeks Wow :)

Tyler is 3 weeks almost 3 in a half actually. I can't beleive it even looking back on my whole labor experince. It wasnt that bad ok the back labor was fucking brutal though I will admit that. My Doctor was amazing (expect making me wait tell 7cm to get an epidural). I would do it over again in a minute. I know I remember saying that I dont want anymore kids, however I really cant imagine not being a mommy now. Its weird that a baby who cant talk, who sleeps eats and poop's can make my whole day better by smiling at me. Even if people just say its gas I dont care his smile makes my day.

I'm getting back on track with my schooling YAY.. I'm hoping to finish by November and be able to secure a job by Jan 2011. That's the plan well see what actually happens. Part of me really misses Utah and I really do want to go back I miss my friends I mean I have meet some really cool people out here anne and sheila are awesome. I just miss my mountains, and I miss being able to walk up the street and go hiking. I miss that small town country type feel North Ogden had. I miss my crazy white trash family. I want Tyler to have his grandparents in his life. I had my grandmother in mine and It was great, sadly I never knew my grandfather I want Tyler to know his grandpa :). I cant really complain I knew what I was marrying into and that's military life I cant chose where we live. The Airforce does and I'll just have to deal with it .

The weather out here is horrible.. Humid as all FUCK, 90-98 degrees +humditiy I feel like I'm going to die some days. I try to get up early and go walking its a little harder though when Tyler wants to sleep because believe me you dont want to wake up a sleeping baby. Or at least I dont :) I enjoy my sleep, I've got 20 pounds to lose to be at 135 again + a shit load of cruches that need to be done to tighten skin again.. I need to get the member ship on the base gym activated so I can work out in A/C lol.

This is why I didnt bother :)

Dont get me Wrong I LOVE photography I've invested alot of my time into learning photography (The RIGHT way). I invested in my camera and my flash and my backdrops as well as my lighting. I know what needs to be done to create a nice portrait. However it seem as of lately everyone and their damn dog wants to do photography which is great its a great thing to learn. Here is my pet peeve people who make a "company name" take pictures for 4 months and think their some kind of photography godess um NO. Your not sorry but your pictures Suck their over-expossed and you used lighting wrong. This isnt directed at anyone imparticular I'm just getting frustrated with the over abundence of people who want to learn it but just are too lazy to either ask for help or to pick up a photography book and learn. I bet half these people I've seen on facebook & craigslist dont even now was DOF or appeature or F-Stop is Or their focus depth on their camera. Those are so cruical in photography on and POP UP FLASH on your DSLR is not meant to be used it looks BAD in every picture...


This is why I dont bother promoting myself out here much I mean I could make some money however I dont want to have to compete with these "wannabe photographers" It Sounds Like I'm all high and mighty but I'm not I'm just frustrated that this is like a joke to some people. These people are getting wedding shoots and screwing them up and these people are living with crappy photo's of their weddings you cant re-shoot a wedding I mean you just cant !